Disoriented

So I'm sitting here, trying to figure out what to write, and I realized suddenly that I can't really recall what I did today.  I know I went to school, and I know I went grocery shopping at 1am, but the rest of the day is really a mystery to me.  How does that make sense?!

New student orientation is tomorrow.  I won't make it by 8:30 because it's 3:30 now and I'm just going to bed.  And I'm definitely not an early riser.  But I think as long as you get there around 10:30 or so it's okay, from what I gathered from the email I received from the school.  If not, then, oh well.  My sleep is more important than being told where the washrooms are.

I spent a good chunk of the day wandering around campus.  I love exploring places, and buildings (abandoned or not) serve as a particularly exciting exploration experience for me.  I don't know why I find it so fascinating, but it is.  The science building is my favorite.  The basement is a huge maze of corridors and little auxiliary walkways, and it's lined with research labs on either side where mad scientists and graduate students do all sorts of dangerous and fascinating things.  Walking those hallways really reminded me of Half-Life and Black Mesa (one of my favorite games of all-time), and made me wish that I was a science major, so I'd get to experience all those really cool things people do down there.  But, alas, I'm not cut out for a career in science or engineering, and it's probably a good decision that I don't go into that field, but that doesn't mean I can't imagine what it would be like, and be envious of people who get to do it... xD

I wanted to go jogging today.  I've been out of shape for a few years since I stopped taking martial arts and stuff.  My stamina sucks; though, to be fair, it's never been that good anyway, but I realized it's gotten decidedly worse.  I decided I'd start doing things to get into better shape.  There's no rush, so, whatever I'm in the mood for, but, something's gotta be done.  Unfortunately, today's plans fell through and I didn't end up going.  Maybe I'll get a chance to go tomorrow evening, since I like going when it's cooler.  The school's campus is amazing and beautiful, and I can't think of a better place to spend a bit of time jogging around.

School starts Monday, and I'm really excited.  I can't wait to jump in and start the year, start meeting new people, and just learn new things.  The weekend comes first, though, and on Saturday, Kyle and I celebrate our anniversary.  I don't know what we're going to do yet, but I want to do something fun and memorable.

By the way... Owl City's new song, "To the Sky", is fantastic!  <33

Steady as she goes

I absolutely adore Sky Sailing.  It's an Owl City project, which is like, my favorite band musical group person everrr.  Probably the best song off the album is "Steady As She Goes" (though "Captains of the Sky" and "I Live Alone" are also amazingly beautiful), and it always reminds me of sort of a journey into the unknown.  Where you pick up your knapsack and set out without having a destination in mind.  It's not a tedious journey, or a particularly dangerous one; just one where you're not sure where you'll end up.  Those sorts of journeys are the best.  They don't let you set the mind onto a specific track; they don't let you estimate what the ending will be like, distracting you from all the sights you'll see on the way there.  It frees you to not worry about the destination, and lets you enjoy the journey.  I think that's the most important in anything: the road there, not the there part.

I think that's how I'm going to approach the next few years.  Sure, I can worry about what I'm going to do when I graduate, and where I'm going to end up next.  I can pass over the next three years just worrying about the destination, missing all the sights, sounds, and freedoms of being a university student truly on my own for the first time.  Or, I can just forget the destination.  It will come regardless... no need to worry my little head over it.  Instead, I can experience the wonders of the journey there.  Stop, and really, truly experience each day.  Laugh along with friends, cherish being up late nights staring into the violet sky, walk the trails on campus and see the geese migrating.  Each day that passes is like a full meal of once-in-a-lifetime experiences.  If you skip over the main course and go straight to dessert, you missed the best part.  Live each day as though you will never be able to come back and have the same experience again.  That's what I'm going to do.

And I'm going to love every day doing it.

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