A bit about me

What blog is complete without a post about the author?  So I guess I should introduce myself.

My name is Skybluekid.  We'll stick with that.  Originally I'm from Los Angeles, California.  I moved up here to Canada to start my first year of college/university.

I'm gay, and I'm out.  Sort of.  My goal is to be out to everyone up here, but sometimes I chicken out and try to hide that part of myself.  I think most of that fear comes from the sort of treatment I got back home from coming out to a few people who meant a lot to me.  I think, though, that this will be a lot different.  People here are different.  So I won't hide who I am, because that's caused problems in the past too much.

I'm not out to my parents.  I can't do that yet.  They're European immigrants from a very conservative country, and their views on gay people just... suck.  I don't know what their reaction would be if I told them, but I refuse to find out.  So I decided I would keep it from them as long as I could... at least until I was financially stable anyway.  They're the ones paying for my school, for one.  I don't want them to stop paying or stuff like that.

I have a boyfriend, and we live together.  We actually met a few years ago online, and he came down to visit me a couple of times.  We stuck out the long-distance relationship and it finally paid off.  When it came to apply to universities, I begged my parents to let me come here, since this is where he lives and is going to school.  I used all sorts of excuses.  I said that in the long run it was less expensive to go here, how the schools are better here, how great of an experience it would be, etc.  In the end they agreed to let me apply and I got accepted!  I was so excited, but also terrified.  This would be the first time I was away from my parents for so long, and so far away!  But so far it's been fantastic.  The freedom, the ability to just breathe deeply and not feel the mental oppression that I would get every day from being around my parents is soooo liberating.  I don't think I can describe just how wonderful it feels.

So I live with my boyfriend and his mom.  His mom and I met a few times before, and she's really chill.  She knows about us and is completely okay with everything.  Imagine that!  I wish my parents would be so accepting.  I managed to convince my parents that I found "off-campus housing".  I'm really surprised they didn't investigate further.  But, I won't look a gift horse in the mouth.  It's a good deal.

I'm majoring in business with a concentration in human resources.  I feel I'm a pretty good judge of character, and a decent motivator and leader.  I think I would do well in that position.  I find workplace psychology to be fascinating as well.  Secretly, though, I wish I could be a counsellor for LGBT youth.  What I went through growing up was a difficult struggle, and I really, really wish I had someone to help walk with me, give me advice, and so-forth.  The thing is, studying psychology is not something that interests me, so it would be difficult to do something like that as a career.  But I mean, who knows.  Maybe I can volunteer at a place or something =)

I think that's enough about me for now.  It's been a pretty fantastic journey for the past few weeks as I moved up here and left my old life behind.  I feel refreshed and renewed, and optimistic about the future.  I hope it continues to be that way, and that feeling just keeps growing.  I don't think I've been this happy for a long time =)

Oh and, if anyone wants to chat or something, my MSN is on my profile.  I really like to hear from people... I don't have many friends, especially ones who are gay.  It's always a great experience meeting new people and stuff.  So yeah... don't hesitate to comment or chat or something!! <33